Week One......but I'm starving.....

I enter the building and am greeted by a pleasant lady behind a desk....she says "oh you're a convience member, go ahead and get weighed in".....ok...here we go.....I remove my shoes....set down my keys (hey I have a lot of keys, could be a whole pound of keys)....should I take off my sweater or would that look desperate??  Fine, leave the sweater.....step on the scale.....watch the numbers spin out of control and finally stop.....-3.5lbs.....really....thats all??  But I was so careful.....I didn't eat mall food even once during that week....I was careful with my beer intake....I counted out 15 nacho chips so that I only had to take 3 points for them....I took what I thought was a tiny piece of lasgna AND I skipped the garlic bread.....WTF....I figured at least 20lbs should have been lost.....relax...I didn't really belive 20lbs...but I did think 6...that's what my scale at home said......stupid lying scale.....exactly the reason why I usually try to avoid them like the plague. 
This ain't gonna be no cake walk....I'm hungry....or at least I think I am.....sometimes I think I'm obsessed with "the next meal".....while I'm making my breakfast, I can't stop thinking about what I'm going to have for lunch....will I have enough....what if I get hungry...what will I do then......it sucks.....but it has to be done.....we always want to look better....but I'm at the point where I need to do this for my health....stupid aging process......
.....anyway on to week two.....so far so good....I went a little over board on the weekend so now I have to be extra good....Weigh in is on Thursday.....do you think she'll mind if I take off my sweater.....

Time Flys......

Can you believe it's almost Christmas....yes I said it....Christmas.  Soon I'll be taking winter pictures...pictures of Christmas trees....sigh....time is going so fast....to fast.

I'm about to embark on a yet another journey....try try again I guess.....this time I'll talk about it on here...but not out in the real world. There's to much pressure when you speak the words out loud.  People start asking questions.....making comments....."oh you look great...you've lost weight"....that makes a person wonder...whatcha thinkin' now....."god lord, she put all the weight back on".  This way if I pretend in the real world that it's not happening then people can't talk about it.  So if I accomplish what I set out to do (another reason I don't want to talk about it out loud, I've played this game before and lost, and not lost in the way I wanted to)and someone utters the phrase "have you lost weight"...my answer will be "Nope!"

So bring on the tummy growls...bring on the grumpies....good bye chocolate bars...good bye cheesecake(except on extra special occassions).....Hello 40, I see you right up there around that corner......Hello weight watchers.....shall we try this again...hell ya!