One Step Forward.....Two Steps Back

So I had thought I had some really good news....I lost 4.5lbs at my last weigh in.....that's 9.5 lbs in total.....however.....after I lost the 4.5lbs I started cheating.....I ate a big ass peanut butter cup (and it was delicious I might add) and I've been eating beef jerky and mini chocolate bars.  Damn my chocolate addiction.  Last night I tried to make up for some of the nastiness I had done by going for a walk...and low and behold I am a huge chicken shit.  I walked for about 20 mins then had to go back...all I could think about was the bear I had seen some 3-4 years ago.....I even played the music really loud....that made me just have to stop and look behind me every 10 steps.  I don't really like to walk with other people because I get winded to quickly and I like to listen to music....just be with my own thoughts....rude yes.....but true.  So maybe I'll just have to walk in place :S Now with hunting season started even if I did get brave and try for another walk I have to suit up in blaze orange...and even then I'm not so sure I trust the hunters....lol. 
I'm going to try and be extra good for the next 3 days and hopefully the damage at my next weigh in won't be to bad........we shall see.

That is one big chick!!

Yep...one big chick.....why does my mirror never show me how big I am.....the camera does not lie.  No wonder I avoid getting my picture taken....I shall start to try and avoid it again.....the booze made me careless....and how can I tell them not to put pictures of me on if I put pictures of them on....I'd hate to stop taking pictures...but maybe I'll just stop posting them...then I can bully them into taking these awful pictures off....I'm sooo not dressing up next year. People don't take pictures if you're not dressed up.  Yeeks!
Last weigh in I was down another two pounds, however with all of the booze and then the pancake breakfast....well lets just say I'm not that hopeful.......we shall see on Thursday.