Christmas has come and gone....

....but with it came back some of my weight.....I was down 18.5lbs.....I missed last weeks weigh in (no...really....I was just that busy).....but now I have to go and get weighed in tomorrow and I do not look forward to it.  In fact I wish I didn't have to go.....but I guess that's all part of paying for WW is to go even when I know I "facked up" (sorry mom)...Lets see there were the normal things....turkey, dressing, potatoes...beer.....but then what about the lemon squares, chocolates, cheesecake, dips....lots of different dips...and of course more beer......what the hell is up with that.....give this girl an inch and she'll take a mile.  Time to face the music....tomorrow will be a sad day in whoville...and what really sucks is that I still have to get through the new years festivities....and no I'm not going to behave myself....I just don't have that kind of will power....well you might say "then suck it up chickie and be prepared to gain some poundage"....well that's exactly what I'm going to do......damn......it's pretty sad when you look forward to going back to work just so that you'll eat better.....yikes.

One Step Forward.....Two Steps Back

So I had thought I had some really good news....I lost 4.5lbs at my last weigh in.....that's 9.5 lbs in total.....however.....after I lost the 4.5lbs I started cheating.....I ate a big ass peanut butter cup (and it was delicious I might add) and I've been eating beef jerky and mini chocolate bars.  Damn my chocolate addiction.  Last night I tried to make up for some of the nastiness I had done by going for a walk...and low and behold I am a huge chicken shit.  I walked for about 20 mins then had to go back...all I could think about was the bear I had seen some 3-4 years ago.....I even played the music really loud....that made me just have to stop and look behind me every 10 steps.  I don't really like to walk with other people because I get winded to quickly and I like to listen to music....just be with my own thoughts....rude yes.....but true.  So maybe I'll just have to walk in place :S Now with hunting season started even if I did get brave and try for another walk I have to suit up in blaze orange...and even then I'm not so sure I trust the hunters....lol. 
I'm going to try and be extra good for the next 3 days and hopefully the damage at my next weigh in won't be to bad........we shall see.

That is one big chick!!

Yep...one big chick.....why does my mirror never show me how big I am.....the camera does not lie.  No wonder I avoid getting my picture taken....I shall start to try and avoid it again.....the booze made me careless....and how can I tell them not to put pictures of me on if I put pictures of them on....I'd hate to stop taking pictures...but maybe I'll just stop posting them...then I can bully them into taking these awful pictures off....I'm sooo not dressing up next year. People don't take pictures if you're not dressed up.  Yeeks!
Last weigh in I was down another two pounds, however with all of the booze and then the pancake breakfast....well lets just say I'm not that hopeful.......we shall see on Thursday.

Week One......but I'm starving.....

I enter the building and am greeted by a pleasant lady behind a desk....she says "oh you're a convience member, go ahead and get weighed in".....ok...here we go.....I remove my shoes....set down my keys (hey I have a lot of keys, could be a whole pound of keys)....should I take off my sweater or would that look desperate??  Fine, leave the sweater.....step on the scale.....watch the numbers spin out of control and finally stop.....-3.5lbs.....really....thats all??  But I was so careful.....I didn't eat mall food even once during that week....I was careful with my beer intake....I counted out 15 nacho chips so that I only had to take 3 points for them....I took what I thought was a tiny piece of lasgna AND I skipped the garlic bread.....WTF....I figured at least 20lbs should have been lost.....relax...I didn't really belive 20lbs...but I did think 6...that's what my scale at home said......stupid lying scale.....exactly the reason why I usually try to avoid them like the plague. 
This ain't gonna be no cake walk....I'm hungry....or at least I think I am.....sometimes I think I'm obsessed with "the next meal".....while I'm making my breakfast, I can't stop thinking about what I'm going to have for lunch....will I have enough....what if I get hungry...what will I do then......it sucks.....but it has to be done.....we always want to look better....but I'm at the point where I need to do this for my health....stupid aging process......
.....anyway on to week two.....so far so good....I went a little over board on the weekend so now I have to be extra good....Weigh in is on Thursday.....do you think she'll mind if I take off my sweater.....

Time Flys......

Can you believe it's almost Christmas....yes I said it....Christmas.  Soon I'll be taking winter pictures...pictures of Christmas trees....sigh....time is going so fast....to fast.

I'm about to embark on a yet another journey....try try again I guess.....this time I'll talk about it on here...but not out in the real world. There's to much pressure when you speak the words out loud.  People start asking questions.....making comments....."oh you look great...you've lost weight"....that makes a person wonder...whatcha thinkin' now....."god lord, she put all the weight back on".  This way if I pretend in the real world that it's not happening then people can't talk about it.  So if I accomplish what I set out to do (another reason I don't want to talk about it out loud, I've played this game before and lost, and not lost in the way I wanted to)and someone utters the phrase "have you lost weight"...my answer will be "Nope!"

So bring on the tummy growls...bring on the grumpies....good bye chocolate bars...good bye cheesecake(except on extra special occassions).....Hello 40, I see you right up there around that corner......Hello weight watchers.....shall we try this again...hell ya!

Ahhhh......Summer Begins!

I'm not even sure if anyone is still checking in from time to time as I have been very neglectful of the blog......blame my work....they blocked blogs and forums.....damn......I' would like to post some pictures of everyone's beautiful gardens if they'd like to share them.......

Yummy.....

Lemon Greek Chicken

2 t. lemon zest
1/4 cup lemon juice
2 T. olive oil
4 large garlic cloves, pressed
2-3 t. dried oregano leaves
3/4 t. salt
1/8 t. ground black pepper
2 medium baking potatoes (no need to peel)
1 medium red bell pepper, cut into 1" pieces
1 medium red onion, cut into wedges
8 oz. fresh whole mushrooms (yuck, i left these out!)
4 split (bone-in) chicken breast halves (2 1/2-3 pounds)

Preheat oven to 400°. In 1 qt bowl, combine lemon zest, juice and oil. Press garlic into lemon mixture. Add oregano, salt and black pepper; set aside. Cut each potato lengthwise into 8 wedges; place in 9 X 13 baker. Add bell pepper, onion, mushrooms and half of the lemon juice mixture; toss to coat. Place chicken on top of vegetables; brush with the remaining lemon juice mixture. Bake 1 hour or until chicken is no longer pink in center, basting chicken and vegetables with pan juices after 30 minutes.