I look like I'm melting.....

....no seriously.  That's what it looks like under my clothes.  Shorts are NOT my friend.  I knew there would be saggy sking, but I literally look melty.  My skin sags in a way I didn't know was possible.  I love buying new clothes (much to Brett's dismay...lol) but now it's getting hard again.  I look in the mirror and notice my bat wings.  If I keep my arms too close to my body the skin all wrinkles up.  If I try on a pair of shorts I just stand and stare in horror at the way the skin on my thighs hangs....yikes. I don't dare wear a tank top and shorts in front of anyone but family, and I'm even getting a little self conscious in front of them. I was so excited about Old Forge but now I'm getting all anxious because I might have to put on a bathing suit.  I always told Addy if I lost weight I would go on the water rides....well she is holding me to that.  I bought a bathing suit in Florida that I liked but I've lost about 20 or so pounds since then but I'm afraid to try it on for fear of what it looks like.  Hey now I know this sounds like complaining and maybe it kind of is.  But I don't want you to think of it that way.  Just venting, how about that.  I actually don't mind the way I look in clothes, I will never be a skinny mini but that was never what I set out for to begin with.  In fact I like my curves.  I don't mind that my hips are still big and my boobs haven't lost much.  Take the clothes off or have less of them on and whoa nelly, it is not a pretty sight.  It's a little bit humorous....a little bit.  When I express this out loud to some people their first response is to say "oh that's age".  Fair enough some might be age, but not all.  Ok, ok...I've been trying to excercise, and even lift some small weights.  But I think I could do it every day and from what I've read it's not going to help.  Oh well.....stay tuned for more from the incredible melting woman.